Do you ever feel you don't know what your life..should be? Do you often find yourself trying to place your mind into a time or place where your heart was happy; to somehow feel like you belong somewhere? I knew it. Must be a brain twin thing 'cause I'm feeling this so bad right about now. So, why does this happen, does the brain just decide to make you feel like a lost cause for the sake of it? No. In my opinion it is a defense mechanism that the brain puts up, almost like a wall for us to not feel too much emotion for something or someone incase it hurts us. Ahh, how cute is the brain! Looking out for us like that?
Err...no. It's not quite as nice as it sounds. Yeah, yeah I know, people say all the time "I wish I could switch off like that and be that strong" that's all well and good, but how about when you can't switch back on, sweetheart? The brain is such a complex simplicity, it does things so simply and so quickly but how complex can it get?! What gets to me the most is the displacement that I experience when I'm away from something familiar, things get a bit dreamlike and cloudy and I have to look for a piece of my life somewhere in my mind, ironically.
Utilizing ALL of your senses in situations like this help mad amounts. Honestly, even a scent can get you feeling real again, a taste..a song. They're incredible at bringing you back to a time. Why though? why do old things help us trigger our placements? Some may call that living in the past but arguably if you can't grip your present and you don't know your future, the past is the only thing to snap you back. I only mean that for this disorder brain trick.
I don't even feel anxious, so I don't understand why my brain is going on a mad one. Maybe I just think I got this shiiiit called Life under control, but my brain disagrees, clearly. The strongest people suffer this, because they've trained themselves to think in a specific way that in the end the brain thinks like this for everything.
Listen, man. I haven't sussed this one out, yet. I can't tell you the solution but here's a tip; when you feel something, ANYTHING; feel it hard, feel every tiny bit of it, go crazy with the emotion. Just do it. You used to, so do it again. I know what you're going to do, you're going to just forget about it to avoid damage; you must avoid the urge. Whether its happiness or sadness you need to show your brain that your heart wants to work as a team.
At the end of the day; the heart doesn't win without the brain. The heart is willing to work with the brain, you just need to convince it.
Peaaaaaaaaaaayce.
